Was I a happy kid :D :D :D I went crazy for them! I tried saving some for home haha I wanted to plant them weeds hahahaha but when I was about to pick out some new ones before we went home, the wind has fuckin blown them all away :( I just found one that was already half dead :( Aww.. But anyway I was EXTREMELY HAPPY! :D It's been a dreaaam, yo! I see those kids blowing dandelions on TV and in books and I've been wanting to see one ever since I can remember.

Once, in grade school (methinks 4th grade but I can be wrong), I saw weeds/flowers that look exactly like dandelions! I was with a friend or a classmate whatever and I ran to the patch of 'dandelions' screaming "DANDELIOOOONSSSS!!!" with so much glee and my friend ran with me and I grabbed one and I huffed and puffed and huuuuuffffed and puuuufffed on it like a big bad wolf but my heart broke because it couldn't be blown awayyyyy :( Ever since then whenever I would see those dandelion look-alike I would still try to blow on them and secretly hope the 'seeds' would float away into the air and shit.

So, that's why when I saw those freakin' balls of air glowing and looking at me gaaah i went crazyyyy hahahaa! I ran and got one and blew it instantly and WAAAH wowww happppyyyy :) :) :) On our way back from the beach, I picked a few more I had a bouquet of dandelions hehe not too many just around 8 dandelions. Gless and Philip and Jessica gave me some dandelions to blow, too :D

It was weird to the people I was with that I've never seen a dandelion, haha. Makes you realize how much things you take for granted just because you see them everyday. Like cherry blossoms planted all over our campus here. Oh my, they're lovely! They're all white when they blossom but turn pink after like a week I think. Every time I pass by the library, I would walk slowly just to smell the cherry blossoms haha. Sharing :D

Well anyway..

I LOVE DANDELIONS. They look like fireworks to me! HAHAHA :D

While I was looking for pictures to post here, I saw these interesting and beautiful pictures on flickr:




|



I think I'm afraid of sharing because I am from a different culture, and I have different values and perceptions. Even when I was in the Philippines, I still consider my views in life very idealistic and different from others but at least my friends there understand where I am coming from because even though not everyone is as WWJD/AMDG-obsessive* as I am (hahahaha laugh all you want), or as activist mode as I am, they are still instilled with the basic principles I believe in (i.e. giving, valuing and respecting parents, justice and equality, believing in the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit (or a higher being), etc.). Whereas the culture here, as I have observed from the people I deal with everyday, is more centered on valuing the self, and taking actions on what is good for the self. There's nothing wrong with that, in fact I believe that, too, but I don't choose to live that way. What I'm saying is, if I share I may be misinterpreted and be judged (judging others is very easy and almost automatic to everyone) as someone I am not, or be told silly. What I'm saying is, I'm afraid they may not be as open as I am to understanding another culture. But I was thankfully proven wrong by two (three if I count Sherry) people in the retreat yay! :)


I suddenly missed having conversations. I have forgotten what a conversation junkie I am. I'm usually, you know, in anti-social mode here because I get intimidated or sometimes I just don't feel like mingling with people -- yes, I'm arrogant like that. But getting my mind stimulated with the different perspectives of people, I'm crazy about that. Reminds me of the endless nights in the Ateneo soccer field with Pao C. or with Joey (+some booze haha) and just talking about the past the present the future the trees the world the family the big bang theory robots flashlights religion music cookies sticky rice socks pigs lalalalaa alalalala everything under the sun under the stars. It's not as easy to have beautiful conversations here because I never get to hang out with people I know because: 1) there's no soccer field (not that it matters), 2) no drinks allowed to minors (GRAAA), 3) no time for people to really have conversations, 4) no time for people to 'hang out', 5) no 'alone-time' with people, always in groups and I'm never comfortable in such big groups, 6) no staying out late because I have parents breathing on my neck, and simply just 7) no time (everyone has work, yo). I guess that's why I got comfortable with the idea that I don't need friends. Anyway, I digress.

I know I'm not as expressive as the people I've met here, and I know I seldom speak to appreciate or to give thanks because I'm a coward and I am shy haha what a loser. But I really want to thank Gless and Philip for listening to my woes and my aches haha. Sherry, too. Thank you, from the bottom of my heart :) :) :) You don't know how badly I needed that talk, haha. Things have been bothering me since since the retreat started but I didn't know I could talk to, or if really wanted to talk to anyone. Gless, you asked at the right time (even though I didn't really really want to share! HAHA! But I know I needed to :D). Also, I would like you guys to know that I am open to whatever you want to tell me -- I like to listen but I don't want to pry, and I don't really know how to start small conversations (you may have noticed haha) and I can never hold 'small talk' GASP haha but I try to! :D Sooo, if you want to talk to anyone anytime even in the middle of the night (I'm usually up until 4am), drop me a line so we can talk! :)

I look forward to having friends here, to getting to know Gless and Philip and Sherry and other people. FINALLY, I'm 'moving on'! Progress, yaay! :)

EDIT Oh I forgot to mention that I think it has also been about a year since someone hugged me, and I hugged someone. Imagine how much of a loner I am hahahaha! Isn't that strange? :D /EDIT

**WWJD - What Would Jesus Do? and AMDG - Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam (All For the Glory of God). I have very a very strong faith though I always falter.
|

Off to a retreat until Sunday afternoon.

Wish me luck. I have deadlines and a final exam on Monday!

Have a great weekend everyone! :) Will miss internet huhu mwahugzzz internet! |


"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves: Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -- Marianne Williamson

TRUEDAT NOH? This quote inspires me everyday :) I first heard this from a movie titled Akeelah and the Bee.

Always makes me feel good when I read it yeahhhh I wanna rock hard! |

This must be a publicity stint since he and his horse are coming to Broadway. I sincerely thought he was gay. Best of luck then you old bloke :D

Harry Potter star seeks mystery Australian girl

SYDNEY (Reuters) - Daniel Radcliffe, the actor behind the boy wizard Harry Potter, is hunting for a mystery Australian girl who cast a spell on him at a film awards party, local media reported on Monday.

Radcliffe, who started playing Potter in the popular Harry Potter movies when he was 11, has often spoken about not being able to find a girlfriend.

But Sydney's Daily Telegraph Newspaper said Radcliffe, 18, now wanted help to track down a woman he met briefly at a film event in Australia.

"She stared at me all night and I was going to get her number and then I couldn't find her," Radcliffe told the newspaper.

"I must have walked around that party for an hour trying to look for this girl, like some sad pathetic dweeb, but it would have been worth it."

The Daily Telegraph has started its own search for the mystery beauty, asking the young woman to contact the newspaper.

|


Sometimes I get so caught up with worldly things that I forget about you. I strive to always remember to put you first in everything and I always fail to do so. But I know you are not worried. I know you feel how much passion I have to communicate your love to other people. You know I'm not a quitter. You are in my heart. You keep my fire burning.

Ad majorem dei gloriam. |

|

Yoinked from Bodi. Because I haven't washed the dishes and would love to answer another survey:

39 Secrets About You.
Be honest no matter what.

[One] Who was your last 3 texts from?
- Joey.

[Two] Where was your default picture taken?
- My what? Maybe my profile pic? In a Bayo dressing room! :D

[Three] What's your middle name?
- Brizuela

[Four] Your current relationship status?
- It's complicated.

[Five] Does your crush like you back?
- What crush?

[Six] What is your current mood?
- Apathetic.

[Seven] What color of shirt are you wearing?
- White and mint green pajamas.

[Eight] What's the color of ur nail polish?
- Blood red♥

[Nine] If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
- I'm too lazy to think of something.

[Ten] Where was the last place out of town that you went to?
- NY.

[Eleven] Ever had a near death experience?
- Not really.

[Twelve] Things you do a lot
- Eat, sleep, be passive-aggressive haha, eBay!!

[Thirteen] Do you have a fondness for gnomes?
- No they freak me out.

[Fourteen] Who can you tell anything to?
- God! The only one, seriously.

[Fifteen] Name someone with the same birthday as you?
- Laarni Mayor, my batchmate. Aaaand.. Mia Pavia, high school schoolmate.

[Sixteen] When was the last time you cried?
- This morning when I felt really insecure :(

[Seventeen] Are you for or against capital punishment?
- Yes, I am.

[Eighteen] If you could have (one) super power(s) what would it be?
- I can never decide.

[Nineteen] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
- Hairrrr.

[Twenty] Who is your favorite celebrity?
- I have to say St. Angelina.

[Twenty-one] What is a theory that you believe?
- Theory of Relativity. Hahaha.

[Twenty-two] Favorite color?
- Red. Sometimes yellow. But I always drawn to green stuff.

[Twenty-three] What is one thing that annoys you on TV?
- Filipinos in MTV's Parental Control.

[Twenty-four] Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
- Yes, I always watch Fairly Odd Parents, iCarly and Josh and Drake.

[Twenty-five]Are you eating or drinking at the moment?
- No.

[Twenty-six] Do you speak any other language?
- Yes, Spanish and English. Learning ghetto now dawg. HAHAHAHA!

[Twenty-seven] What's your favorite food?
- Sashimi/sushi. If I can eat sushi/sashimi for the rest of my life I would.

[Twenty-eight] Describe your life in one word?
- Passive.

[Twenty-nine] Have any tattoos?
- No.

[Thirty] What are you looking forward to the most?
- Home coming! :)

[Thirty-one] What are you thinking about right now?
- Tagal magtext ni Joey.

[Thirty-two] What should you be doing?
- Washing the dishes hahahhaa.

[Thirty-three] Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
- The father or the mother.

[Thirty-four] What are you listening to:
- Parental Control on TV.

[Thirty-five] Do you like working in the yard?
- I don't work the yard yo.

[Thirty-six] If you could have any last name in the world, what would it be?
- Enigma! It sounds so cool. I had a classmate last sem named Luna Enigma.

[Thirty-seven] Do you act differently around the person you like?
- No.

[Thirty-eight] Are you happy now?
- Kindasorta.

[Thirty-nine] Why did you cry last time?
- Insecuritieeeessss i.e. my fats hahahaha!

Didn't seem like the above were secrets. Wonder who makes these surveys. I wanna make one! :D Haha. |

I baked some low-fat chocolate muffins! Only 5.5 grams of fat and 180calories for 12 cupcakes! :D The mother bought me some ready-made chocolate cake mix and instead of using eggs, milk and oil in the mixture, I used DIET COKE. Sounds crazy but they turned out pretty OK! :) They're moist and chocolate-y. Haha. Nothing beats the real thing but I've been craving for some chocolate for the longest time! I'm on a low-fat low-calorie diet so yeah I've been depriving myself haha. Yay for my low-fat chocolate coke cupcakes! :D

I'm stealing this survey from Cla. I haven't answered one for quite some time soooo here goes:

RED=ANGER

1. Are you currently mad at someone?
Not really mad, just annoyed :)

2. Which of your family members has the worst temper?
All of us! But I think the father will rip your head off.

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
Not because of anger.

4. Does your face turn red when you're angry?
I have no idea. I don't think so.

5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
Stare. When I do talk I ask questions nonstop and make you feel guilty and throw sarcasms at you. Hahaha. I also talk quite softly. People get scared.

ORANGE = EXCITEMENT

1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
No :(

2. Are you easily excited?
Depends.. Usually :D

3. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?
SHIT GOING HOME YO NO FUCKIN' DOUBT!!!!

4. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?
For real??

5. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
A pedometer. Hahahaha what a geek.

YELLOW = SELF DISCOVERY

1. Name?
Ricky Abunda.

2. Birthday?
Nov 18.

3. What's your main goal in life?
As of now, my main goal is to help out kids with special needs (kids who are mentally retarded, have autism, have severe Tourette's syndrom etc. other learning disabilities) -- establish a school (syempre sa Pilipinas) for them with cheap tuition, with the best teachers and staff who has the same passion as I. No, I will not hire you if you hit kids and if you are just working for the money. Main goal in life, bow.

4. Do you want to have children?
Yes! A lot of childreeen! :)

5. How do you want to die?
In my sleep!

GREEN = OPINIONS

1. Lower the drinking age?
No.

2. Capital punishment?
No.

3. Abortion?
No.

BLUE= LOVE

1. Do you love someone?
Yes.

2. What do you want for Valentines Day?
Nothing.

3. Do you believe in love at first sight?
No.

PURPLE = Q&A

Q: How many beds did you lay in today?
One.

Q: What color top are you wearing?
White and mint green -- still in pajamas.

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
A lot! Hahahhaa, I just got paid :D

Q: Is Tom On Your Top Friend or On Your Friends List?
Yes, in MySpace.

Q: Look to your left..what do you see?
Cupcakes.

Q: What's the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?
Don't remember.

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
Yahoo, eBay, Gmail, Blogger, Adultswim.

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
No.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
My heart. HAHAHAHAHAH!! What a ball of cheese.

Q:When was your last taxi cab ride?
A year ago, in Manila haha.

Q:Do you own a picture phone?
Yes.

PINK = LAST

1. Person you saw?
My parents haha -- same here.

3. Movie watched in cinema?
God it's been ages! Bourne Ultimatum pa! @_@

4. Song you listened to?
Let Go - Frou Frou

5. Person you talked on the phone with?
My aunt in the Philippines.

GREY = TODAY

1. What are you doing right now?
Watching TV and answering this.

2.What are you doing tonight?
Wash the dishes :( I hate washing the dishes :(

BROWN = TOMORROW

1. Is....?
A wonderful breezy day.

2. Goal?
Answer my long overdue take home LT.

3. Are you going to laugh?
Probably not because I will be stuck all day with my parents who are not capable of being funny. Hahahahaha how harsh! Kidding.

4. Are you doing anything tomorrow?
Yes, going to Ikea in the morning for my father's office supplies, going to the mall to buy loads of B&B body spray and stuff ($5 sale!! :D) and going to Church in the evening. That's it.

Rock on time consuming surveys! Gotta run, gotta wash dishes booo. |

This was I think 4 years ago(!!). Wow tagal na rin pala. Pero parang it was just yesterday! We (those in the pic +Rona Burce who is not in the photo) were one campaign party (can't remember our party's name!!) and we ran for positions in the student gov against the political giants in the school. We were total newbies (not everyone but in our party there was just one or two who had experience in the student gov't)! We held positions in different organizations but it was never as big as the student government.

That time, the campaign was really intense. The conflicts -- the teachers were so against us running -- and the controversies haha it was popping all over the place. Grabeng drama talagaaa.. I believe we were supported by most of the student body, and the other party was supported by ALL the teachers and higher officials in the school. The pukesas were an all out support, grabe. I could never thank them enough! Jantz Rache Porsh Kate Fay Karren Charm Siopao Miks and everyone else.. SOLID.

Wish I could remember why we rebelled against the system. I don't remember what the devil told us that made us (or me) super frustrated with the system. At that time, everyone thought it was what was needed. I still can't believe we did it, though. Most of us won, btw. What happened after the heated campaign is another happy story. Hahaha.

EDIT Hahaha here's Elgin's pic (yes, Elgin/Tosh ECE in Ateneo) and Kat's pic (Kat/Puti/Boy/Trin). Pang-asar lang! Hehehehe. Kat says she looks like Juday hahahwahaha. I say Elgin looks like an anorexic dork. I can't believe people go crazy over Elgin, I mean, look at that face! HAHAHAHHAA joke lang Elgin :p /EDIT

|

Rock on! I finally found a layout! I'm keeping this until I get photoshop, I want to make my own :) I got this one from blogskins, thank you detonatedlove for this template. I just tweeked it a tad. Somehow I can't figure out how to put the comments from blogger back. Imma figure it out! Fosho! :)

Alright, I need to go homage now! :) Gooooodnight! :) |

There's a 4gb red Zune in eBay, worth $99.00 (+$9.99 shipping) and bidding's gonna end in 3mins. Should I buy it should I buy it should I buy it. Goddamit I can't close the motherfucking window noooo I don't want to buy it damnitttttt!!

2mins to go and I'm still itching. It's just 4gb! It's not worth it. Graaaa!

I think I'm just getting hooked into this eBay thing bidding blah because of the adrenalin I feel when I'm bidding. I really don't need the item, nor do I want it that much. (1min to go yay and I'm still posting; must ignore damned eBay!!) I keep on convincing myself that I want it though I know I don't. Wow how the mind works. Thank goodness I can distract myself with this blog.

30seconds to go.

Ok typetypetype.

Alright! Nobody bid on the item. Sayang, I could've won! But there's no joy if I don't have any competition! Isn't that ironic, donchatenk.

I am happy that.. Yaaaaay I just saved myself from becoming bankrupt :) :) :) And for that, Imma give everyone Peeps when I come home hahaha!

|

I made a booboo!! I think I just deleted my blog's template, and now when I publish it I don't see anything. GOODNESS!!! WHAT TO DO.

Ok it's back. But my widgets and all the stuff I customized are gone. Dang! Just when I thought I learned how to install templates. Nobody wants to teach me how to change templates. I don't have friends. Hahahahahahaha! Just figured out how to put them back without doing it all over again. Thank goodness! :)

***
My Adobe Photoshop CS3 isn't working :( Juju sent it to me pa but then wala, it doesn't work :( Must be because I waited like 3months+ before trying to install it. I am really sad :(

***
GREETINGS TO MY READERS IN THAILAND!! :) Miss you bitchessssz! :D |

The weekend's almost over, gaaaah! I don't want to go to school yet. I have so much HW I don't want to do :( I feel sooo lazy. Lazyyyy. Just been listening to Renee Olstead and Fiona Apple all day night while surfing eBay. Yes, I'm still addicted to damned eBay.

I'm feeling rather mellow (and laaaazy) today. Too much tension the past few weeks, ayoko na ng drama! I miss you A Perfect Circle.

Before I forget: Thanks Kikismall, Chabitch, ClaAnak, and Pao C. for still caring about me and my enraged feelings. Hehehe I LOVE YOU GUYS YOU ARE THE BESTESSSSTTTT!!! HUG! HUG! HUUUUG!!!! :")


|

DISCLAIMER: My posts are completely random. My posts never have substance. Please don't bother reading! Thanks! :)

DAMN. I can't stop searching for stuff I want to buy kahit I won't buy it naman. I mean A LOT of stuff: shoes, basura, gadgets, bags, shoes, wallets, shoes shoes shoes i love shoes. Sayang lang sa oras. It's been hours already and yet I'm still here still trying to search for my luho like there was no tomorrow. In eBay, I have almost 50 watched items already, accumulated in just 2days.

I'm keeping an eye on several (like 10!) mp3 players, and I am praying for each one of them (like I hope nobody bids for this item. If someone does, I hope it's not going to be more than $20.). I get disappointed when I don't win the item kahit na I didn't bid naman talaga! Pano naman ako mananalo nun? Hahahhaha. It's so illogical. I have no plans on buying a new mp3 player, no plans of giving it to other people, no plans of selling it either. Same goes for the shoes I'm watching, and the wallets I'm bidding on. Completely absurd, don't you think?

It's like I'm window shopping. But I'm not hooked to window shopping that much. Not as much as I am hooked to this online shopping setup. In fact, I'm not hooked to window shopping at all. I actually shop when I'm supposed to be window shopping. Then it's better for me to do online window shopping. Yay.



|

SHOUT OUT TO MY READER IN MACAU! I KNOW WHO YOU ARE! PENGE PASALUBONG ANAK! :p

49069695	04/10/08 08:21:47	ce35.macau.ctm.net	Macau	MS Internet Explorer 6	Windows XP	1024x768	32 bit
04/10/08 08:21:47 - http://elinculto.blogspot.com

ALSO, GREETINGS TO EVERYONE WHO STUMBLED UPON MY BLOG! Look at these countries! Amazing! :D Wala lang, tuwa lang ako :D

	United States	78.06%
	unknown	9.38%
	Canada	1.83%
	United Kingdom	1.39%
	Spain	1.34%
	India	0.96%
	Italy	0.61%
	Thailand	0.58%
	Australia	0.51%
	Germany	0.32%
	France	0.32%
	Brazil	0.30%
	Mexico	0.26%
	Ireland	0.25%
	Netherlands	0.18%
	Malaysia	0.16%
	Japan	0.16%
	China	0.16%
	Poland	0.15%
	Indonesia	0.15%
	Philippines	0.15%
	Argentina	0.12%
	Singapore	0.12%
	Sweden	0.11%
	Malta	0.11%
	Korea, Republic of	0.10%
	Russian Federation	0.10%
	Taiwan	0.10%
	South Africa	0.09%
	Chile	0.08%
	Turkey	0.07%
	Peru	0.07%
	Belgium	0.07%
	Denmark	0.07%
	Finland	0.06%
	Colombia	0.06%
	Venezuela	0.06%
	Israel	0.06%
	Switzerland	0.06%
	Nigeria	0.05%
	New Zealand	0.05%
	Greece	0.05%
	Norway	0.05%
	Europe	0.05%
	Romania	0.05%
	Hong Kong	0.05%
	Portugal	0.05%
	Puerto Rico	0.05%
	Hungary	0.04%
	Egypt	0.03%
	Slovakia	0.03%
	Czech Republic	0.03%
	Pakistan	0.03%
	Satellite Provider	0.03%
	United Arab Emirates	0.03%
	Ukraine	0.03%
	Vietnam	0.03%
	Austria	0.03%
	Saudi Arabia	0.02%
	Panama	0.02%
	Bulgaria	0.02%
	Iran, Islamic Republic of	0.02%
	Costa Rica	0.02%
	Slovenia	0.02%
	Kuwait	0.02%
	Trinidad and Tobago	0.02%
	Croatia	0.02%
	Bangladesh	0.02%
	Saint Lucia	0.02%
	Dominican Republic	0.02%
	Ecuador	0.01%
	Kenya	0.01%
	Uganda	0.01%
	El Salvador	0.01%
	Estonia	0.01%
		0.01%
	Qatar	0.01%
	Morocco	0.01%
	Serbia and Montenegro	0.01%
	Lithuania	0.01%
	Bosnia and Herzegovina	0.01%
	Luxembourg	0.01%
	Jordan	0.01%
	Bolivia	0.01%
	Guatemala	0.01%
	Latvia	0.01%
	Jamaica	0.01%
	Barbados	0.01%
	Bahrain	0.01%
	Bahamas	0.01%
	Honduras	0.01%
	Sri Lanka	0.01%
	Uruguay	0.01%
	Anonymous Proxy	0.01%
	Ghana	0.01%
	Syrian Arab Republic	0.01%

Wala lang. Amazing talaga the Internet. Wala lang talaga. I feel kinda stupid for getting giddy just because someone from another country came upon my blog. SMALL WORLD. Wala lang :D

HELLO WORLD. |

cha♥ kikismall♥ cla♥ kikibig♥ jevie♥ dantes♥
to be continued thanks

03.2006

04.2006

08.2006

09.2006

10.2006

11.2006

12.2006

01.2007

04.2007

05.2007

06.2007

07.2007

08.2007

09.2007

10.2007

11.2007

12.2007

01.2008

02.2008

03.2008

04.2008

05.2008

layout: detonatedlove
inspiration: wordpress
counter: counters.cc
map: ClustrMaps
my parents: for creating me. Yuck baduy. hahahaha.